I’m still gorgeous. I was a pretty girl who turned into a beautiful and alluring woman. Definitely gorgeous. I have been all my life and now as I reach middle age I want to go on being gorgeous. And why not, I enjoy being attractive, I like the way I look and I like that others like how I look too. I am a heterosexual woman and I have attracted male attention when I have wanted it, and yes, sometimes when I haven’t. But I have had choices, and we all know choices are good to have. Admittedly most of that male attention proved to be unsuitable and eventually unwanted, but there was a lot of delicious love-making and falling in love on the way to the inevitable partings and that has all been facilitated by my good looks as much as by my personality or cleverness. I have been delighted by the lovers who have pleasured me and equally I have relished pleasing them. I have been good at it. Yes, being gorgeous has been an advantage and a pleasure and I want to carry on being gorgeous.
I find myself asking myself if it is possible or indeed necessary to do all I can to stay still gorgeous whilst I grow older, and yes, just what is gorgeous anyway ?
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graceandelegance // October 16, 2008 at 12:41 pm |
I love what you have writen and how aware you are of time and tide. I feel that we have an obligation to be the very best we can be and to take care of ourselves. I notice that as I age my self awareness is heightened and I trully believe that I am becoming more attractive as the years go by. I am becoming more daring; showing more cleevage, walking more erect, being at times brazen. And yet, wonder why my kind of attractivness seems offputting to men, who gaze and admire and are in wonder and awe – from a distance. And those few, who dare to come close, soon fade away.
graceandelegance // October 16, 2008 at 1:21 pm |
And I like your colour better than mine!
stillgorgeous // October 16, 2008 at 9:59 pm |
Maybe it is self awareness and hopefully with it there is a greater sense of confidence that is experiential. For example I know what a skilled and sensual lover I am because I have been and love to be and so that must affect the confidence that I bring to any interaction with a man. A dilemma I think for confident women as they mature is that men are very attracted to sexy and successful women who are articulate about what they want, but as they age they also have a greater sense of their energies and priorities and what they can cope with/want from their partner. If they are driven and successful which we want them to be, their lives are likely to be filled with long hours of demanding work. They will often have children and complex inter-relationships and domestic arrangements with former spouses. Aged parents and the issues that they bring are increasingly in the picture too and of course there is the inevitable increase in fatigue that anyone over forty has to admit to. I suspect that despite their default response to the glamourous and unattainable they actually want a woman who is there for them in a nurturing and caring way, to share a life and all the concerns that come with the above within it with. Perhaps the problem for self aware and brazen women is that men are attracted to such women, who embody the traits of an exciting lover or mistress but that when push comes to shove they actually they want a lover who can also be companion, a friend and confidante, a help-mate, a co-parent for their children, in fact another wife ! Great disappointments happen when there is a misunderstanding of our own and others needs. Perhaps the challenge for all of us when seeking our mate is to understand what our needs truly are and to make sure that we go and seek a partner whose needs match our own. And that isn’t easy because we often don’t really know what our needs are or find it hard to admit to them because it makes us feel exposed and perhaps vulnerable. It’s a tough thing to do especially if we are protected by all sorts of learnt and defensive behaviours. But we need to be alert to when those behaviours are no longer serving us well and may need changing.